Anyways...

well it seems kids are leaving me alone now.
i haven't heard anything else about a lawsuit or anything, but i apparently won an award

in any case, i think i am going to head to charleston or myrtle beach in South Carolina.

it'd be nice to see the ocean in warmer weather than when i was in New York.

this might be my final stop, i am not sure.
i got a little bit of money from my parents, mainly for the window of my car. i dunno, i am going to see if i can try to play a show or something to try and get some cash. the only thing is that like, outside of playing shows, i don't know if i'd need to get some kind of visa or permit if i picked up some actual job somewhere. i don't even know if i would want to go through all that hassle as it is.

i talked to Samantha last night. she heard about the whole fracas and called to see how i was doing. then we just kinda bullshitted a bit. made her laugh a couple times, which was good to hear.

i'd also like to thank Jeff from ap.net for being real cool to me throughout this whole thing. haha i think it's rather ironic that this whole thing started with some Kerouac inspiration, and the dude who's been coolest to me throughout the thing goes by Neo Cassady.

i'll have to buy him a beer if i cross his path on this trip.

time for food.

Oh, so you mean I actually have to plan it out....

I have a lot of things on my mind right now.

First and foremost, I am wondering if I really want to go to New York. Being the way that I am, I decided I made the decision in a moment of emotional intensity. A moment of weakness in reason. Which means I am now wondering if that's what I really want to do.

OK, let me backtrack. Yes, I still want to go.
I guess what I am wrestling with now, is that if I go to New York, I don't think I am going to come back. Not right away, anyway.

But then it's like, do I have enough money? Where would I go? How would I get around?

It's not like I have an amazing car or anything. Just a Bonneville. I mean it works, but I don't know if I would trust it on a trip without a destination.

I got a decent amount of money for Christmas and graduation. Plus my regular savings, which I am usually pretty good with. But I wonder how far $5,000 (maybe more, maybe less) would really take me.

I don't even know why I even write about these things in here. It's not like I have a huge audience of people awaiting my every post with baited breath.

Sidenote: I looked up "baited breath" just now, as after I typed it, I wondered if it was an actual phrase. I swear I've heard it before, but it's like, while I know what it means, I don't know the origin, or if I even used it correctly. The more you know. *

Anyway, whatever. Headed to a show at the Vinyl tonight.
After that, it's farewell to Ontario.

* So I'm a nerd that likes etymology. Fuck off.