Friday, February 15, 2008

Believe it or not... actually interviewed me yesterday.

haha, i didn't want to say anything until it went up.

this is awesome.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

music man

i've been surprised i haven't been writing a lot while on this trip (other than the blog, i mean).

i have my guitar and all, but i've only ocassionally brought it out. i had kinda figured i'd have all these things to write about, and well, haha i probably do if any of you have been reading.

but i dunno. i think i'll just head to a park or something today, clear my head and just ramble on the guitar until something comes.

or maybe an asteroid will fall on me on the way to my car. who knows, these days...

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

maker's mark

i had way too much last night. i am still in pain.

and according to a comment on my last post, Victory included their news post about me in their newsletter.

haha. at least it's getting people to read the blog.

i need food.

Veal Chop called me last night. Seriously. "I'm sorry dude, i didn't mean for you to find out this way...".

why do people say that? what better way is there to find out about that? he acts like he was going to do me a favor.

oh well.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

when it fucking rains...

seriously. i can't win.

i just heard about all this, and i mean, i guess i'm flattered that "they support me."

but jesus christ, hacking victory's website? I ALREADY COMPLIED. i am not trying to hurt anyone. fuck, farewell to freeway is my favorite new band. i haven't been so into a band like that in so long. now this?

i don't need anymore crazy shit happening to me.
goddamn it, i almost wish i never put up those songs, or better yet, started this damn road trip.

what the hell else could possibly happen to me?

Kerouac must be laughing his ass off in his wandering grave, and if i knew where it was, i'd spit on it for getting hyped about traveling.

ok well no, but seriously. i don't even know what to say.
i just love music, i am not a hacker, and i do not know any hackers.

wow. i need a drink.

of all the things...

i got some messages about my post yesterday, and people are confused.
and not without surprise, as after all, i came to whatever fucking revelation i had about how much i missed samantha. i almost even went back home, for her.

until she broke up with me.

she read my post about what happened in Atlantic City. it's my own fucking fault for leaving it up, yeah whatever. but that's not even the worst part. at least that's understandable.

the worst, is that she fucked my best friend, Veal Chop.

on top of all the craziness that's been going on, my best friend fucked my (ex) girlfriend.
so what can i say, maybe i was emotional, maybe whatever, so i wrote that my thoughts on farewell’s lemmings song, cause at least michele is someone that has touched me and made me have hope.

Michele wrote an email about the leak thing, and well, what can i say, she was very sweet about it, like she was when i met her back in December. so i just started writing. i can wallow in all of this misery but i also have hope and faith that there is something else i can get out of this damn trip i'm on.

i have dreams and i'd like to think that something's there. i can't stop thinking about her. i hope she believes in fate. maybe it is fate, after all, i met Michele and the band right when i decided to make this trip. i wonder what she'd say if i saw her again?

anyway, laugh all you want, poetic justice, or whatever the fuck, cause i don't need it right now.

Monday, February 11, 2008

not giving in...

the majority of you have stated that I should remove these tracks. i am doing so because that is what the majority of you said was the right thing to do. so i am posting links to the band’s mySpace pages (on the right) in case you want to check out their music. what is the difference anyway, right? this should make everyone happy.

hahah i mean really. i gave some good promo to some bands that i like and met. i am really falling in love with farewell to freeway especially. i can understand to a point why the bands were upset and why they had victory have a cease and desist sent to me. tony at victory was actually cool about everything and told me that the bands were upset when i did not listen to them and that he has to defend them when asked. michele from farewell sent a nice message as well. so if i offended you i am sorry. sometimes my passion can take over but i never wanted to hurt anyone.

in other news i am not going home. i am going to “keep on truckin’” as they say down here. i am meeting too many great people and have a feeling these experiences will be with me forever.

A lemming for love

the farewell to freeway track lemmings has been stuck in my mind for weeks. especially since meeting their keyboardist michele back in december. i have never met such an honest artist that I feel I connected with so quickly. she has such strong qualities about her and a very magnetic vibe. i have had a feeling in my stomach ever since. it is weird and hard to explain. a bond was made within myself. i cannot stop thinking about her and the few moments where she spoke to me. I know we are thousands of miles away but I feel a connection. should I head west to California or go north and go home? has anyone else met someone and felt an immediate connection that cannot be explained. some of the lyrics from lemmings make me feel like we are somehow connected on a higher level.


the music and the experience of meeting you have made me feel very alive. so much so that I cannot explain it.


do you think of me? did I make an impression? did we connect on any level? do we have the same dreams (ever???) I am here but you are so far away. do we have a link? all I can do is look at the two photos I have and listen to the music and think. and dream. and wonder.


am I just lonely? Was it the time and place? I do not want to be lost. i want to be found. maybe we can find something together?


things feel like they are changing. different. maybe because the road is getting to me. maybe I am discovering who I really am. maybe the same is happening for you. or maybe, you have forgotten about me.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

good lord

who knew it was that easy to rouse a sleeping giant.

i haven't taken anything down, and i have no plans to.
while i'm normally a rational person, (which you'd know if you've been reading), this whole leak thing has been quite amusing.

in other news, i think i am going to get back on my trip, and visit one last city before headed back to Canada. i was able to get some money wired to me, and i got my window fixed on my car. i think i'm going to Atlanta. maybe even hedge my bets and go to california. or some place 'round there.

blog later...

Friday, February 8, 2008

now, i am just going to be a prick

so now Victory’s bands are sending people to harass me.

like it wasn't enough they use some cease and desist scare tactic yesterday on me, but now kids are coming to me from EVERYWHERE because these bands bitched to their label to make a fucking news post about it.

i was actually going to take the shit down, but fuck it. this is bullshit harassment. this is way out of control, i am way too far from home, and i just don't need this anymore. and frankly i don't care. maybe I will just go to mexico.

here's all the stuff you want, Victory. listen and enjoy courtesy my blog oh yeah and the cheque is in the mail.

*i took these down*

you delete them.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

oh my god

i think i am going to head back home next week.

money's finally running out, i kinda miss home, and stuff seems to be worked out with Samantha.

this trip's been awesome, but apparently not awesome enough that i'm still willing to trade the warm weather of South Carolina for the freezer that's Ontario, haha.

naw, this has been awesome actually. especially the cougars.


It turns out Across Five Aprils and Victory Records ACTUALLY ARE GOING TO SUE ME.
I just got a Cease and Desist letter in my email from Victory's attorneys.

I am going to post a picture of the letter in a little bit have posted pics as proof that i am about to lose my mind. i don't knwo what to do. I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS CRAP!


1350 Avenue of the Americas
Suite 3100
New York, N.Y. 10019
Telephone: (212)957-5577
Facsimile: (800)659-3985

BY E-MAIL February 7, 2008

Mr. Chris Xavier
Ontario, Canada

Re: “Lonesome Traveler” Web Blog

Dear Mr. Xavier:

This firm is litigation counsel for Victory Records, Inc. (“Victory”). I am writing in connection with the series of recent postings on your “Lonesome Traveler” web blog. In those postings you have published and/or provided access to videos and/or sound recordings of live and/or unreleased versions of songs owned and controlled by Victory, including, but not limited to Farewell to Freeways’ song “Lemmings”, Secret Lives of Freemasons’ song “Airplane”, Dead to Fall's song "Cropgrower" and Across Five Aprils’ song “This Means Not Welcome” (the “Songs”). In addition to owning the sound recordings and musical compositions, Victory also owns and controls all rights to the name and likenesses of each of those bands.

Your conduct constitutes, among other things, copyright infringement under the laws of the United States.

We will assume, for purposes of this letter only, that until now you have been unaware that your conduct exposes you to legal liability. However, you are hereby placed on notice that Victory will hold you fully responsible for any damages arising from the illegal publication of the Songs, unless, by 5 P.M. Eastern Time, on February 8, 2008, you: (i) remove the Songs from the Lonesome Traveler website and any other websites maintained, owned, controlled or operated by you, including, without limitation, your MySpace website; (ii) that you disable all links to those Songs on those websites; and (iii) that you provide us with written confirmation that you have done so. We also demand that you identify the sources that provided you with the video and/or audio recordings of the Songs that you have posted on your websites.

Your failure to comply with the foregoing demands will leave our client with no choice other than to commence legal proceedings against you and all other parties responsible for these copyright infringements in a court of appropriate jurisdiction. Should that occur, our client shall seek, without limitation, injunctive relief and money damages, including statutory damages and attorneys fees.

This letter is not intended to be a complete statement of the facts or the law relevant to this matter and is written without prejudice to the legal and/or equitable rights and remedies of our clients. Any and all such rights and/or remedies, whether or not referred to in this letter, are hereby expressly reserved.

Very truly yours,


Monday, February 4, 2008

Lonesome Traveller

So I think I am going to head back to Ontario.

This trip has been amazing. Minus all the bullshit with Across Five Aprils. Apparently they asked kids to come harass me again, but oh well. Rather that then legal action.

Well i dunno, i may hang around here (South Carolina, Myrtle Beach to be exact) a little while longer. The weather's pretty decent, should be 65 degrees today. And of course, I like seeing the ocean. It's hard to imagine not being able to see the end of something, to see how expansive and so much like the sky something can be.

But at the same rate, I am getting a bit homesick. And I miss Samantha. I was at a pub last night watching the Super Bowl (fuck yes, Giants. don't give a fuck about the team but i do love me an upset), and made friends with a dude there. The place had free italian beef and meatballs for the game, it was amazing. Salt of the earth types packed into a hole in the wall.

Anyway, back on topic, at some point in the night I'm explaining why I'm out here when his girlfriend calls him. He looked quite disappointed, maybe even dreadful. He proceeds to get into an intense argument, which I got the feeling they've had many times before. I tried not to eavesdrop, but the dude was right next to me. Afterwards, we talked about it a bit.

It's almost hilarious how similar their relationship was to mine and Sam's. Such petty and inconsequential things that are simple feints hiding the real issues people don't want to talk about (she complained about how he text messaged "luv" instead of "love" to her, taking it to mean he didn't mean it). It made me think about me and Sam, of course, as well as relationships in general.

With my previous girlfriend, i don't think we ever fought. Maybe once, in three years. And before that, I don't think I've ever fought with whoever i was with, though with Sam it's like every week. And the rational part of me would have had me leave her after the second or third time. Maybe even the first. But i stayed with her, and her with me. People say that's just how relationships are, and I think it's bullshit, even though I'm living it.

There is no reason for things to be like that, especially since I have to repeat myself over and over again to Sam when she already knows the truth about something but seems to want to argue just to see if I even care. It's so draining, but I miss her more than anything.

And I have no idea why, it makes no sense, but i suppose it doesn't need to.

Anyway, the sun's out. I need to go outside.